nurturing myself

So, I've never really been good at nurturing myself. I tend not to listen to my body, when it's hungry, tired, etc. I've lived in "survival mode" for most of my life, and did that up until pretty recently. A few months ago, I was learning to take care of myself. So, I would do little things just for me. Like take a walk in the sunlight, or meander through an art museum, write what was on my mind, take long baths, read a good book, or take a bike ride. Then, I went a little crazy. And those things fell away and it was just trying to catch the next high, no matter what that entailed.

But now, I'm learning to love myself again. It means sitting on a bench in the sun and being fully present- not checking out in my music or a book, but breathing, feeling the wind on my face and the heat on my legs. It means going to the beach more, and spending a lot of that time floating in the ocean and letting it calm my soul. It means dancing in the rain, eating well, doing yoga, and stop being so hard on my body to the point of doing intense, violent workouts daily. It means not hating myself, and not punishing myself for the things done to me, and the things I've done. It means driving with the windows down and playing my music loud and singing at the top of my lungs. It means being vulnerable and honest, even if it's terrifying. It means not giving away my truth to those who don't deserve it. It means forgiveness, laughing more, helping others, and paying attention to details. As far as today goes, nurturing myself means getting off my bum and my laptop and getting out of my false reality and taking a walk through the gallery in front of me.

May your day be full.

sarah∞mae